They' almost found me two weeks ago, only blind luck saved me. I wonder how much longer I can manage to stay hidden. All my life I have been hiding, even when I was not consciously aware of it.
I remember back to an episode that happened when I was a child of about 8 or 9 years of age, and I was ill with a type of stomach-flu. Usually my younger sister and I shared a bedroom, but because of my illness I slept on the chesterfield in the living room. The chesterfield was placed near the window unlike my regular bed, which could not be seen from our bedroom window. I told my mother that at night I wanted the window-blinds down because someone could look in. Of course, my mother thought me silly, and reminded me that we lived on the second floor and that nobody could look in, since there were no high buildings across from out house. At that time we lived on the outskirt of a medium sized European city and our house faced a farmer's field. I kick-up enough fuss that my Mother decided to humor me, maybe because of my illness, she kept the blinds pulled down, and contended I slept during my illness.
This happened before the first atomic bomb was dropped, and years before Rocket ships, trips to the Moon and before we knew about what Satellites' surveillance eyes could see and way before UFO became a household word. Moreover, I knew then that there were things flying around that could see into our windows, and the instinct to hide, to not be seen was there and it grew stronger the older I got. To begin with I was not sure who I was hiding from, consciously, I though my fellow humans. I was afraid they would find out who and what I am, even if I could not answer that question myself. I only became sure of what and who I am much later. If I had told anyone, at that time or maybe even now, they would think me paranoid and out of my mind. At that time, I would have agreed with them, but I have grown a lot since those early years. Enough to know that what and who I am hiding from are not of this planet; they are not human.
Well human is a relative term. Many beings may not wear a human body, but in feeling, action and behavior they are human of the highest quality. Maybe it would be more accurate to say they are not Earthlings or Terrestrials. No, that is not the right term, because in natural form they do not possess bodies consisting of matter as it is known on Earth. I am as human as the rest of the people living on this planet since I was born into this body. Maybe, the term I am looking for is 'more than human', and I think there is more of my kind on Earth. I have remember and recognized some from other lives, and more and more my memory is coming back. So, I know we are the correct term and it is not just me who is hiding. We are of the 'Many-Times Born'. How many of us are there here on Earth, I don't know. I may have met many of my kind, but if they do not remember who they are and I do not remember them, then I cannot tell who are of the 'Many Times Born' or of the 'Once Born.'
But, the more I remember and become aware the harder it is for me to hide, the easier it become for 'them' to find me. Lately the buzzing has started in the hidden layer of my mind; there lay the danger and the dilemma. I cannot stop myself from searching anymore that I can stop my mind from thinking or my awareness from growing. It is too late to turn the clock back and I want to remember -to remember all and everything.

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I already know we have been hiding for a long time, through many ages, lives on many different planets in many strange forms. We choose our parents and get born into form, to have a family and a life and most often we loose our memories when born into a physical form. That of course is a fool-proofed way of hiding. Maybe my memories were prodded because I could sense 'them' being near. This life I apparently picked a very sensitive body. I have yet to meet up with anyone who remember who and what we are; maybe only a few manages to wake up before the body dies and it time to shift to a new body. I cannot yet remember why we are hiding or who 'they' are.

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My memory is getting better all the time. I now remember some of the many lives on many different planets throughout the Universe and in many different form of intelligent life.
I remember beings, technological advanced enough to have weapons that could reduce a planet surface to rubble, so it would look like it had never contain life, not even a germ; or tear a planet asunder, so all that was left was an Asteroid Belt. But, those beings are not the ones I fear for I remember they also wore physical forms and have long since died.
Why and when did we start the inter-change from Energy to Matter -from Matter to Energy? Did we start seeking refuge, in the physical world where birth and death are a reality, or simple out of boredom? A boredom that must eventually affect a Race that never dies -in term that seems like Eternity for the ones born in physical forms and Eons even for the Energy-Born.  Did it all start from a need to hide and became something else, maybe we liked the experience; the emotion we feel when in physical form. That maybe we do not need to hide anymore. But, why the fear? ...No the fear is real!
Could it be that in the far past, a split of ideologies; two sides starkly opposed to their chosen mode of living. One side more peaceful and concerned with the right of the individual entity and the other side obsessed with power and control: Very human traits, but, why would one expect "the more powerful" to be any different; "As above, so below."
Could that be how the struggle between the Light and Dark Powers began?

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I have met one of us. The one I have loved from the beginning of Time, another 'Many-Born,' I do not feel so alone anymore, even if he do not remember who he is. And, maybe it is not necessary to hide anymore, but why the instinct to hide if it is not necessary. Because, the fight between the opposing side is still going on a strong and bitter as in the past: A battle that has lasted Eons. Is that it is that why I feel the fear? Again yes, the fear is real!

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I remember now, the ones I fear can play football with the Stars and move Galaxies around like play wagons. Could they even destroy the matter Universe if they wanted to? I do not know.
They know they cannot kill a 'Many born,' only the temporary body we wear, but they can shatter our energy into many small splinters that take many eons to re-assemble, even for a High Energy Healer. But, if they find us on this planet, they know they can hurt us deeply by destroying this planet and all the living matter on it. Because we care about all living thing and entities, they would destroy just to be spiteful and because they know that is the only way they can hurt us.

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Now, I remember who we are; WE ARE LIGHT and the fear that I have been feeling is for the battle been the Light and the Dark Powers, because I had forgotten why we are here. The battle has already begun: WE ARE IN THE END TIME.